I don’t want to listen to that new album by that band I like because I’m afraid that I’ll either hate it so much I’ll start to question why I ever liked them in the first place, or love it so much I’ll stop listening to their old stuff.
If I hate it, I’ll put it down and go back to their previous albums, but in the back of my mind the new album will be there dirtying my love of them.
I’ll be thinking how did this turn into that, and I’ll listen and look for the seeds of their future awfulness in the old songs, so much so that I’ll give up and never listen to them again or treat all their albums cagily forever more.
I’ll scroll past them on my MP3 player, pause on their name, think about listening, then go on past, my feelings about their new album influencing how I feel about their entire oeuvre. I’ll walk past the shelves where I keep my CDs and not even look at the cases that are slowly gathering dust.
Then, one day, I’ll feel guilty about it so much that eventually I’ll pick it up and listen to it anyway, because I’ve been neglecting it, then realise immediately why I have, but keep on listening anyway in the stubborn belief that I can find something good in it even if I can’t, and I spent money on it so I might as well get my money’s worth.
If I love it, I’ll listen to it too much, to the point where I start to neglect their old albums, albums which I love and believed could never be replaced, even though I still hope that every new album will outdo their last.
I’ll see them on the shelf or in my MP3 player and think about listening to them for old time’s sake or because I really think they’re tremendous and much better than this new stuff, then realise I’ve moved on, just like the band have.
I’ll think those songs that I once thought were so essential are still essential but not as essential as the new ones, and then I’ll feel bad for them, as I never thought I’d think that, and so eventually I will listen to them again and realise why I loved them so much, though as I do I’ll be itching to get back to their new stuff, because I’ll still think it’s better, even if I try to convince myself it’s not.
- Dear Bands: This Is How You Get Me To Listen To Your Music (greeblemonkey.com)
- The Music That Stays With Me (writingthegirl.wordpress.com)
- Remember 8-tracks. Seriously. (beherethen.wordpress.com)
- Compilation Albums (michaelelinford.wordpress.com)
- I Am The Music Man I Come From Far Away…A Galaxy Far Far Away (kungfujomaaan.wordpress.com)
- A Vinyl Life (theschaefer.wordpress.com)